why do i feel so empty?

ok..some pictures...well...it's 2 actually....sian..no pics to upload..LOL

after local CIP on v-day at bugis cafe.had fun that laughing at some ridiculous stuff...thx for the laughing session, esp SUNAK(aka GERARD)

zz's bday!! at ASTONS!! 15ppl turned up.quite accomplished! LOL...it was fun..

this week is BLUE and GLOOMY for me.darn.

WHY??? obviously.ANGER for no reason.PMS! hahaha.

cross country is next wed,and i dun have the confidence to win top 20 AT ALL! fantastic...

i miss kayaking like hell shit. just gonna taking 2-star & 3-star kayaking ASAP !!!
22may:the day whereby i MUST lose 4kg!! on my way to do so!!

running tmr morning,4km only.but timing for 3.6km.hope on wed can at least get a nice timing. like, 16mins?? hope so...then it'll be homework and math ws!!!

praying super hard that on sunday there'll be STRONG SUN for me!!! that would really make my day (in this week)

thoughts for the week(so far):
1. simply a bloody whiner.that's me.
2. I MUST STOP PROCRASTINATING!! brens,lets' be friends... LOL.. :D
3. darn.a crapper.but i like.the tan.the build.and..
4. hate mind games.simply hate it.
5. why the empty feeling?
6. too late to regret.
7. why cant i just kayak!?!?
8. feel fat and fair...HAHAHAHA..
9. feeling irritated..WHY?

I NEED THE SUN!

today's dip's birthday!!!! hope she likes what i've and others have planned for her...see,im so efficient rite,dip?LOL..bet she's puking if she sees this!LOL...but thought it was not bad..13th..BLACK FRIDAY...LOL...no biggy man.LOL...

today got quite a number of valentine's day gift!!! gosh!!! so happy!I FINALLY GOT A CARTOON BALLOON!!AND IT'S FROM DIP!!!!COOKIE MONSTER LEH!!!!!!!hahahahah...

hmmmm...this week has another surprise..in a way..LOL.shan't be so obvious...but dip will know whom i refering to...LOL..well...hahahaha

darn..wanted to go for time trial for 3.2km wif my sis then do some statics..but got gastric!!!super duber pain man!!dunno why..so couldnt go...damn it...

hmmm...mayb tmr i shall go for a swim...and hope there'll be strong sun.like freaking STRONG??LOL..im becoming fairer..which is so gross...im refering to myself,i jus don't like being fair-skinned..eh..is it like that?LOL..SUN SUN SUN SUN SUN...PLEASE COME OUT!BRIGHT BRIGHT OK?LOL...

lalalalalalala.....

valentine's day is tomorrow...big deal..another day for me..hahahaha..but something to share with you people,someone made this comment..'dammnit..my cupid arrow lost it's way for 6 years?!?!?!?'...isn't that kinda of hilarious.LOL..so funny.anyway...i doing CIP in the morning near golden mile food centre..then afternoon probably meeting candy for lunch at astons...but kinda of lazy to go out tmr..cuz u'll see lots of couples filling up the cafes,restaurants,shopping malls and etc...hmmm...reluctant...just feel like going for a run and swim and make myself super tired and zonk out...LOL...

right at this moment...i want to row...be it kayaking or canoeing...i miss kayaking...think i'll take 2-star after 'A'levels..then go for dragon boating?or jus focus on kayaking??hmmmm......if i take 3-star,then i must take 4-star,or else wasted...4-star course is rather demanding but FREAKING AWESOME MAN!LOL...hahahaha...gotta go to west malaysia(if i nv rmb wrongly)....shiok...

in the sea/water..under the sun...the sand..the mud..the salty water...this is life.

and..i feel like cutting my hair short!!! :D...perhaps bob hair which i wanted to cut since last year?maybe...

regret?

regret?

regret?

i don't regret joining my previous cca.

but i certainly do regret not joining canoeing.it was and still is my passion since secondary 2.
i want to join not because of the glory.not because of the achievements.not because of the fame.

but because of my interest.

now that i lost that chance.

i feel sad.

LOL..sound like a BIG kid.hahahaha

gotta wait after a levels b4 pursuing my dream.maybe dragon boating?kayaking?canoeing?

for now.it's studies and ALL ABOUT RUNNING LIKE MAD!

i knew it.

it would never happen.

enough is enough.

truce limit is definitely OVER!

break down.

1 2 3 4

ARGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this week have been so tiring..i dunno why!just feel that i dont sleep enough! moreover the jc1 are in school, making the cafe super crowded and noisy! hahahaha..i bet the previous batch think the same way when we jc1s were occupying the seats and doing nothing! HAHAHAHA...

tmr morning going for a 6km run..hope i can wake up at eh...6am..LOL..gotta chiong hw tonight,then i'll be free tmr to go out wif 2 friends! finally can meet up..from 5 become 2..sian...

dip intro this song to me..'1 2 3 4' by Plain White T's

1, 2 .. 1, 2, 3, 4
Give me more lovin’ than I’ve ever had,
Make it all better when I’m feelin’ sad,
Tell me that I’m special even when I know I’m not,
Make it feel good when I hurt so bad
Barely gettin’ mad,
I’m so glad I found you
I love bein’ around you.

You make it easy,
It’s easy as 1, 2 .. 1, 2, 3, 4
There’s only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you (I love you) I love you
There’s only 1 way 2 say those 3 words and that’s what I’ll do (I love you) I love you

Give me more lovin’ from the very start,
Piece me back together when I fall apart,
Tell things you never even tell your closest friends
Make it feel good when I hurt so bad,
Best I that I’ve had, I’m so glad I found you
I love bein’ around you.

You make it easyIt’s easy as 1, 2 .. 1, 2, 3, 4
There’s only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you (I love you)
I love you There’s only 1 way 2 say those 3 words and that’s what I’ll do (I love you) I love you (I love you) I love you.

You make it easy, it’s easy as 1, 2 .. 1, 2, 3, 4
There’s only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you (I love you) I love you
There’s only 1 way 2 say those 3 words and that’s what I’ll do (I love you) I love you.
(I love you) I love you.

(1, 2, 3, 4) I love you
(I love you) I love you.

this song is so simple and sweet!!! HAHAHAHAHA..

valentine's day is coming.and we girls have jsut 'forced' our class guys to buy a present for the gift exchange thingy...LOL...tsk tsk..sian..HAHAHAHAHAHAHA....


hmmmmmmmmmm.....

CHINESE NEW YEAR!

ok...i hereby wishing everyone a happy new year! maybe this ox year,everyone will do well in a levels...or in ur studies/cca/sports and etc :D

gosh...thought cny will have a good rest..

NO WAY MAN!!!

got so busy and only had 3 hours plus of sleep,kinda of like tradition lah..LOL...went to temple early in the morning with my parents.still have so many devoted buddhist.my sis was grumbling all the way,well she just isn't a morning person, that's all! hahaha...

went home and sleep for AWHILE.hahaha...change up and went out to collect ang baos!!! hahahaha..no lah..house visiting..LOL..it's so tiring and PAINFUL!! PAINFUL because, as you can see in the photo..the heels are REALLY SUPER HIGH!!! gosh!!! poor sis..she walk until her legs tremble, but luckily, im wearing flats tomorrow!! hahaha....one thing,i nearly wore the same thing as my cousin today, but i decided to wear a dress..haha..or else it's the same red and white checked long sleeved and tube people...LOL...

yawn!!! tiring man!! hahaha..didnt have much appetite today...dunno why..LOL..

anyway,we're so lucky today.whenever we just walked out to the roadside and flag,there'll be a taxi pop out!! HAHAHAHAHA...

arghhh...havent do my hw yet...haha..dun tink i'll do anyway..LOL...

hmmmm....CANT WAIT TO MEET UP wif the badminton girls!! :D can wear new clothes ...hehehehe...

more photos will be uploaded..LOL..

my sis's GUESS incredible high heels(left) & my red hot heels(right)
me with my red heels

me with my sis's heels

sis&me

sis&me

P.S. apparently my sis & i are kinda of vain! LOL...HAHAHAHAHAHA...well,we just like our outfit lah...hehehe.and it's a practise we do.take photos during cny

just another day

yesterday was my 18th birthday.

basically,it's just another day.

nothing much.

sang birthday song and cut a cake with my family and had a meal at ajisen..didnt eat much.ha.didnt feel hungry at that hour..

hmmm..am i excited?

well,im jus gonna treat myself to either a top/dress from hula&co....hahahahahaha....well,make myself happy! hahaha.well, it's not that others dun make me happy, but sometimes u gotta now how to pamper urself once in a blue moon...LOL..