pimples.result of getting stress out.the stress of making decision out of so many other choices.which route is the one that i'll ultimately choose? i chose to pursue something that I prefer,i've been patient.however,i question myself: can I make it? it's not that i'm unwilling to put in the effort,but it really affects my future and i certainly do not want to screw up big time.

getting reply from the *ahem* is seriously damn SLOW! frustration kicks in,hmmm....does desperation shows it too? i really wonder...

getting SAT books soon.looking forward to mug hard.kinda of miss sch,but never mind,i chose to have the gap year.LOL...gotta exercise hard to build up my stamina within how many days.LOL.decided to go for everything and take some time to sit down and really think through before penning down my signature on that piece of black and white paper which will rule my life for the next 10 years or so.gosh.it's a very LONG process.

whew,after typing out,i actually feel so much better.hahaha

i'm a girl who dare to venture.

decisions in life

biggest decision made in my life.

as emphasized, 'my life'.

no extra explanation is needed to those who jus want to poke their noses in.

i'm just taking a different route in life which i'm looking forward to it, earnestly.

well, there's really a great studio to recommend peeps out there, that would be...*drum roll* KIM ROBINSON! it certainly has excellent services! they're polite (well,jus dun be nasty to them ,i guess) although the price of the haircut is really HIGH! i got the opportunity to cut it for free due to lovely promotion that dip has told me, upon presenting that promotion bookmark( booking is essential for that studio, by the way), i got it cut for free when the original price is staggering $158!!! but their skills are commendable and they analyse ur face shape and they recommend what hairstyles would be good for u! although the hair stylist jus snip and snap some of my hair, it became a nice shape!! no more helmet-shaped hair for me! thank goodness for his skills! i always thought i look good in short hair, but the hair stylist recomment that i let my hair to grow at least till shoulder length cuz of my squarish jaws, which i'm intending to.after so many years of nagging from some hairdressers that frizzy hair like mind should undergo rebonding so as to achieve straighter hair. and for ONCE, the hair stylist actually say hair rebonding shouldnt have take place, and a kind of hair treatment would do the trick although that would spell $$$ in your eyes, so if one loves your hair and as self conscious as I am, save up to go for a excellent hair cut. many would think it's extravaggant and i certainly wouldnt deny it. well,it's one's choice.some ppl prefer to pamper themselves once in a while, others may think it's wasteful.but in any case, a good recommendations!

numb

cried during my meal.

dread going to work.seriously.

dont feel like going to work any longer.

it sucked my energy.

i hate saturdays.,

clinging onto the teeny weeny hope

somehow i'm crossing all my fingers and toes that i'll be able to make it to mindef,read carefully,it's mindef but NOT NS. it wouldnt be going out field and etc i guess,or should i say i hope so.it'll really be interesting and cool, nonetheless, pressurizing.

but i hope they'll contact me real soon although with the upcoming national day,it's so unlikely they'll contact asap...hmmmms.

it's really true that one has to create happiness for yourself(well,sometimes)

be brave,that's what i keep telling myself,i've got nothing to lose at all.

mindef.mindef.mindef.call me.call me.am waiting.am waiting.LOL.

make things happen.im not afraid to try anymore.

i do not care so much about other people's opinons.

may be i should tell him,' eh..i think i like you a little more than just friends. can i hold your hand?' LOL

to be brave

i tell myself,

i need to be brave.i need to support those who needs my love and everything.

i walk a different in life,but it doesnt matter because i learn more things and experience along the way through the bumpy course.

life will get more tiring aliong the way,i will hang on even though there will times that i cry like a big baby.

certain things in life that i will still find it hard to let it go, because i will try to achieve it.

but there's one thing that no matter how hard i try to convince myself, i will never try to go for it.maybe, some kind of love is not essential.may be,i can do without it.may be, i'm lying to myself even.

but right now it's about my future,family, studying and career. nothing else.

i just need to make the more appropriate decision.time to grow old

cant be bothered

cant be bloody bothered anymore.

cried like a kid.

felt my heart beating in my intestines.

that's how down i am.

i dont need all those bullshit nonsense anymore.

lost my appetite.

cant control my temper any longer.