somehow i'm crossing all my fingers and toes that i'll be able to make it to mindef,read carefully,it's mindef but NOT NS. it wouldnt be going out field and etc i guess,or should i say i hope so.it'll really be interesting and cool, nonetheless, pressurizing.
but i hope they'll contact me real soon although with the upcoming national day,it's so unlikely they'll contact asap...hmmmms.
it's really true that one has to create happiness for yourself(well,sometimes)
be brave,that's what i keep telling myself,i've got nothing to lose at all.
mindef.mindef.mindef.call me.call me.am waiting.am waiting.LOL.
make things happen.im not afraid to try anymore.
i do not care so much about other people's opinons.
may be i should tell him,' eh..i think i like you a little more than just friends. can i hold your hand?' LOL
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
to be brave
i tell myself,
i need to be brave.i need to support those who needs my love and everything.
i walk a different in life,but it doesnt matter because i learn more things and experience along the way through the bumpy course.
life will get more tiring aliong the way,i will hang on even though there will times that i cry like a big baby.
certain things in life that i will still find it hard to let it go, because i will try to achieve it.
but there's one thing that no matter how hard i try to convince myself, i will never try to go for it.maybe, some kind of love is not essential.may be,i can do without it.may be, i'm lying to myself even.
but right now it's about my future,family, studying and career. nothing else.
i just need to make the more appropriate decision.time to grow old
i need to be brave.i need to support those who needs my love and everything.
i walk a different in life,but it doesnt matter because i learn more things and experience along the way through the bumpy course.
life will get more tiring aliong the way,i will hang on even though there will times that i cry like a big baby.
certain things in life that i will still find it hard to let it go, because i will try to achieve it.
but there's one thing that no matter how hard i try to convince myself, i will never try to go for it.maybe, some kind of love is not essential.may be,i can do without it.may be, i'm lying to myself even.
but right now it's about my future,family, studying and career. nothing else.
i just need to make the more appropriate decision.time to grow old
Saturday, June 12, 2010
cant be bothered
cant be bloody bothered anymore.
cried like a kid.
felt my heart beating in my intestines.
that's how down i am.
i dont need all those bullshit nonsense anymore.
lost my appetite.
cant control my temper any longer.
cried like a kid.
felt my heart beating in my intestines.
that's how down i am.
i dont need all those bullshit nonsense anymore.
lost my appetite.
cant control my temper any longer.
Sunday, May 30, 2010
fruit for thought
respect for another is a basic necessity.
people may have knowledge or intelligence,but not necessary have resilience.
some may have IQ,some may have EQ, some have both.but which is more important? no one knows.
people tend to complain about stress about their lives or how tiring it is.on certain extend, it's fine to whine.too much of it may equate to be annoyance.who isnt tired?
will one ever be satisfied with what He has?not definite answer.
how valid does this statement, 'one has to be rich to be sick', stands? no one really knows.some may agree,while others do not.
mannerism is something that one lacks to comprehend.
is one entitled to verbal abuses when He doesnt make any mistake?
is it wrong to be defensive?
certain sacrifices made in life is because people try to live better in future, but some may backfire.
some plans may be well prepared or planned,but not all can be executed.
life,to me, is climbing a mountain.
it's tiring.not easy.physically,emotionally,mentally tiring.
should i stop now? i dont think so. i once wanted to just throw in the white towel,simply because i cant withstand so many things anymore.
then,i took a step back and look at my life and other people's life, things may seem unfair, but one cant be pessimistic for long.
to pick yourself up is another tiring process.
i stumbled during the course of climbing my mountain,i've yet to reach another base. im continuing to stay strong.
one day i'll reach the peak, and by then, i hope i'll see the most beautiful rainbow in my life.
people may have knowledge or intelligence,but not necessary have resilience.
some may have IQ,some may have EQ, some have both.but which is more important? no one knows.
people tend to complain about stress about their lives or how tiring it is.on certain extend, it's fine to whine.too much of it may equate to be annoyance.who isnt tired?
will one ever be satisfied with what He has?not definite answer.
how valid does this statement, 'one has to be rich to be sick', stands? no one really knows.some may agree,while others do not.
mannerism is something that one lacks to comprehend.
is one entitled to verbal abuses when He doesnt make any mistake?
is it wrong to be defensive?
certain sacrifices made in life is because people try to live better in future, but some may backfire.
some plans may be well prepared or planned,but not all can be executed.
life,to me, is climbing a mountain.
it's tiring.not easy.physically,emotionally,mentally tiring.
should i stop now? i dont think so. i once wanted to just throw in the white towel,simply because i cant withstand so many things anymore.
then,i took a step back and look at my life and other people's life, things may seem unfair, but one cant be pessimistic for long.
to pick yourself up is another tiring process.
i stumbled during the course of climbing my mountain,i've yet to reach another base. im continuing to stay strong.
one day i'll reach the peak, and by then, i hope i'll see the most beautiful rainbow in my life.
Friday, May 14, 2010
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
when the route is not straight...
tough times dont last long
happy times dont last long either
WAS happy that i passed my ppt.
am i that scary?
am i that cold?
am i unapproachable?
am i misleading?
it's so diff to be happy thru'out.
and i cant stomach much.
to act brave is not an easy task,and im definitely failing it.
after this incident,i just keep asking myself 'WHY??' i dont know,and will never know the truth.
truth hurts. and im really breaking into pieces.
happy times dont last long either
WAS happy that i passed my ppt.
am i that scary?
am i that cold?
am i unapproachable?
am i misleading?
it's so diff to be happy thru'out.
and i cant stomach much.
to act brave is not an easy task,and im definitely failing it.
after this incident,i just keep asking myself 'WHY??' i dont know,and will never know the truth.
truth hurts. and im really breaking into pieces.
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