AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

seems like this blog of mine is an EMO blog(as what my frens say so).HAHAHHAA...mayb it's bcuz whenever i feel like crap-pot,i'll type random stuff here.woots!

moe relief teaching application got approved.but lots of schs are cutting budget,chances of me getting to tat sch is soooooooooooooooo minimal.oh man..now frantically scouting for job.gotta get some money in b4 cny,or else cant help out in housewhole expenses.

had food poisioning since x'mas day.till today.though im definitely feel much better today.no more diarrhea!!no more pukes!! hurray!! no more buffet for me unless it's FREAKING good.(exceptions!) thus i couldnt go for the kss sec1 prep camp(extremely guilty), hope the organisers understand.i didnt even make it for my first DB trng.bollocks to the max! argghh!!!

wonder im feeling so crappy.probably a friend of Pessimistic,a bad friend of optimistic.always making decisions for the worst! LOL...like as if the world is falling off soon. howling like a hyena.LOL.random.

watched 2 telemovies(if im not wrong wif the term) called "The Will" and "The Promise". It's simple and nice and sweet, for the second movie. The first one is somewhat a black comedy/humor (if im not wrong). In any case, after watching the promise,i wanna go to Lopburi at Bangkok, during november-jan, cuz it's the season of sunflowers!! and i LOVE FLOWERS!! wanna travel to holland,japan etc ctries to see tulips,lavender,sunflower and etc.the big patch/ spread of flowers is so AWESOME!!!

waiting for my sunshine.waiting for my rainbow.waiting for IT.
truth was told.no one trust.i turned and walked away.

oh boy

2 weeks plus of freedom and i'm feeling real bored.

i got so bored to an extent of cleaning up my house! LOL...well,partly bcuz i really love been very clean(in a way), another thing is that cleaning up takes up a lot of my time!! good way of being productive and a form of exercising! hahahaha....but suffer from slight concussion.LOL..think i hit my head against the cupboard door which i left it open to air it.dumb.

frens are starting to work while im still waiting for the approval email.hope they wan me!! *PLEASE!!*hahahaha....or else i'll need to hunt for a job.


hmmmm...contacted safra dargonboat team.was surprised that they replied me the next day?!?!?! they sort of invited me down to their trngs.well,i haven't been to one cuz their trng dates i always hav smth on.BUT i'll definitely go to their trngs by the 1st of week of JAN 2010! kinda of excited.praying that i wun become so huge in size,which my mum is very afraid of! LOL...at most no bf lor.sad.HAHAHAHAHAHA....

other than that,help my junior wif her sch work,gg out to supermkt to carry groceries,cleaning the house,exercising.i haven been out and under the sun! darn,despo for sunlight! LOL..

bday coming in abt 1 month.times flies really fast!scary!


so many things i wanna do and get:

1 tights
2 more running shorts(1 round cut and straight cut,preferably adidas/mizuno :P)
1 pair of slippers and sandals!
1 shoebag(the current one has disintergarted badly)
LOTS and LOTS of storybks and comics!
cook and cook and cook!!

things that i feel like getting but not exactly very useful,i think, are:

1 phitan band(think i spelt correctly)
tin tin comics(full volume)
asterix comics (full volume)


well,the list is endless...



hmmm...i shldnt be so greedy.

i hate my pimples!??!!?!?

disastrous experience that would be erased.
it's beyond one's limit.
the result of it was devillish.
it wasn't unforgettable nor memorable.
it was unfortunate.
gold cant buy experience.

to erase the name is easy.
to really do it is difficult.

"i rmb what you wore on the first day
there's so much time,to figure out the best in my life
i rmb every look upon your face
the way you roll your eyes
you make it hard for breathing"

i prayed silently in my heart for you.all the best.for you to win.
after a certain age,i don't fight for certain things already.
though some ppl say you've gotta fight for your happiness.
but it is unfortunate that the feelings gotta be forced.
it's better to be in this way.

cant wait to try out all the delicious recipes i've found!!

the ending of one chapter leads to the beginning of another

'A' levels has ended. a new beginning of something else.
sometimes,life/human is weird.when u hav smth,you just want more of smth else.
those endless wants.

wonder will my schedule becomes tighter? hmmm..
hope i can fork out time to do my volunteering at yellow ribbon's.
planned to do lots of cooking.found so many delicious recipes!!

how i wish i can own a DSL.i nearly say SLR(mercedes sports car! hahaha) enjoy taking photographs...

hope that my this long break would be very fruitful!



what's not mine,i wouldn't beg for it.

dunno how i'm actually feeling.
3 more papers to finish 'A' levels.
lets' just say my appetite was totally spoilt.

condolences to the family.
the guy who had a very bright future,
now has passed on.
from that moment,
academic is not everything in the world.
or it's still is?

life is short.

upside down

2 more days to 1st 'A' levels paper.

extreme difficulties in sleeping.

totally NO appetite to eat.

terrible.

being a human

temperamental.that's how i can be feeling nowadays.
dunno why.

to be human.

to be humane.

skip 2000times a day allow me to stay healthy and awake.

study at least 4 hours on a sch day make me sane and saint(i hope).

the passion buring within me allows me to remain humane.

faith and believe in miracle.

4.5 weeks more

roughly 30 more days to 'A' levels! holy cow.felt rather burned out ytd. has been rather grouchy recently.wonder why.LOL.nx thurs is farewell assembly.goodness gracious.time flies SO FAST! then my class will hav our 1st and only class outing to sentosa! LOL...it's my dearest class rep's idea! cool rite.hahaha.
gotta do skipping and stretchings everyday cuz sitting down to study for long hours is bad for my back and neck.
cravings for authentic HAKKA 算盘子!!!

to persevere on.not to eat food that is bad for my health and skin for a month!! few more weeks to go!
crying is not unhealthy.a good way to let out frustration.but dont abuse it.sometimes(once in a VERY BLUE moon) a good cry b4 sleep makes one sleep soundly.

to succeed,i MUST PERSEVERE!!!

nothing is easy.nothing comes for free. sacrifices are sweet if we look at it positively. reward oneself once in awhile!


hope my friend will win at the mister singapore 2009 competition!! may all the BESTIE and GOODIE LUCK be with him!!!

disastrous shit.

stress until hav possibility of acne outbreak. fantastic.

sobbing with my ee-yore now. lol. but im rather annoyed that outbreak so LATE?!?!

trying to destress.like how? go away acne.damn u!

no milk=no chocolates
no cheese
no biscuits
no cakes
no eggs(since cant eat egg white,i give up on egg yolk)
no seafood except fish

due to the weather that i got the irritating skin allergy.sigh.
practically there're lots of food i cant eat.sigh.for 2 weeks! oh well,good time for me to go on diet,maybe by the end of this special diet,wouldnt be so addicted to too much sugary food.
been doing skipping at home.1000 each session. gotta move once in a while.hate sitting for so long. studying's been quite fun.hahaha.definitely tiring.but it'll be worthwhile.

back to mugging.

born to live under sunlight.sunlight is impt for my skin.im serious.that's what doc says.

a kind of internal fight

post prelims now.taking a break today after a 'shocking' ice cream buffet at swensens, ION. not exactly fantastic.it's freaking sweet.i thought i like to sweet stuff,but this is horrendous.i stepped in and the sweet flavouring smell was so overwhelming that i got sick of it b4 i even started eating.i ate a few spoonful of ice cream and gave up.lucky had the marvellous fries and calamari rings.some salty food.but kudos to rach and candy.they're fantastic and BEST MAN!! they got excited and were living in wonderland.and the rest of us were watching them! LOL...thanks rach for using her vouchers!! so SWEET OF YOU :D
felt guilty even i ate not as much as the rest,i did rope skipping.for 1000times.LOL...and some stretching.

outside ION's toilet.it's really nice!
TRAMP! lol

cpf,me,rach

candy,dip,alicia

how lucky can i get?

where's my charm?

will i luck out?

"99% hardwork,1% of intelligence"

true?

what kind of luck i need?

calmness?

a cool and clear mind?

love?

too superficial.

"things do not seem workable to you now,but that does not mean you should give up. Far from it. Now is the time to step up your efforts and see if you can pull off a miracle."

one more paper to finish prelims.but i know i've screwed up physics paper.
now focusing on 'a' levels instead.

feel rather burn out.
my body aches like mad for sitting and mugging for so long each day.badly deprive from exercising.
skin is complaining that it's becoming too fair.time to tan,which i will on sunday.*pray hard it's sunny*
my stomach is being stubborn.not wanting to fill up much when i eat pathetically little.
my back is hurting like crap for sitting long hours.
fats underneath my skin cant wait to be burnt.
eyes is craving for new movies such as 'the proposal' and 'ugly truth'.
brain is badly in need of rest.
how about my soul? LOL...i dunno.
but i certainly feel..light.or should i say hollow?
not emo.just feeling-less.

my dear cousins came back from aussie for holidays,more like kim celebrating her 21st and chee+ angela pon 1week worth of school to support her :D

(kim,chee,my sis,me,angela)
that's what i feel like doing weeks ago,wanted to upload this photo but had problems.right now,don't have the strength at all.

what a bore

nothing else but mugging and dozing off on my notes.
geez.getting really lethargic!
2 more weeks b4 i can resume my run!

what a holiday,
i've learnt how to make fantastic pancakes :D :D :D
hahahaha.
saw one small python on a drain cover along the road today.my sis spotted it first.didnt take a photo cuz there were cars.
it's abt 70cm long,VERY BEAUTIFUL.as in the colours.real nice.
cooked spaghetti for today's dinner.suppose to be done by my sis,but she cut her finger so i took over. LOL..

cant wait for the papers to be over.cuz i did terribly for it.i noe.

need a break.
next sunday!
hope it'll be freaking sunny at ECP!

movie:ugly truth!! wanna watch it! cuz of gerard butler(guilty :P)

recently, my patience is realyl something cannot be toyed with or test.
just dont.
never like to be a tigeress nor a lioness.
wonder why so grumpy.

learnt few things:
1. don't command others to do things when one is doing nothing
2.don't yell at anyone unnecessarily
3. don't scold others for nothing
4. do onto others what you want others to do onto you!

like some songs recently:
always by your side- 大嘴巴
moon river
bubbly - colbie caillat

heart and soul

prelims started.one word to describe:vomits.HAHAHAHAHA.
has been quite grouchy or grumpy lately..yuk yuk.LOL..
cant upload any pics,sadded.hahahaha..counting down,4more weeks b4 i can go for a run again! so now doing stretching and basic pliates,reading pilates book too!! hahahaha...sitting too much to mug is bad for my butt.growing biggggerrr!!! HAHAHAHHAA..
i need SUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!it's tooooooo wet lately!! rahh!!!
[one more reason to my hundreds of reasons why i narrow down my choice]

"we're after the same rainbow's end,waiting around the bend"

last resort: to feign ignorance.mask that feeling.pretense.

HUAT!HUAT!HUAT! CHIONG! CHIONG! CHIONG!

recently whenever i use my com, it'll hotmail,sajc moodle, facebook for awhile, listen 2 songs.all within 30mins.and TADA! off to books.geez!! this is the life i've been trying to cultivate for the next 2++months.but ytd sorta prove tat im a little wee 'burnt' cuz when i sat on my dad's armchair,i fell asleep from4.30-6.45pm!!! intended to study but zonk out after reading the newspapers!! goodness gracious!how's school? like that lor,what else? LOL...seriously,other than mugging and talking some rubbish,mainly academic stuff is really not much of life, but jus persevere!!! 2++ more months only!!!! rahh!!

damn.now when im stress,cant go for run cuz of my dummy left knee cap, i've got smth called Runner's Knee.run too much.athletes tend to have it, especially female.moreover,i've injured it before,so not that fantastic.gotta avoid running for abt 6weeks or so!!!! HELL!!! how to sweat out? no worries,me wanting to keep fit and bloody lose weight, im doing basic pilates and stretching almost every day at home.normally 45mins-1hour. if im feeling stress and cranky,then it'll be 1hr15mins! LOL...and ...swimming!!! ahhhhh!! and all abt the SUN!!! i seriously dun like myself being too fair-coloured. no offense to anyone!

kinda of excited and cant wait for sunday to come.gg smu to mug wif cpf then gg to 'the coffee club' for dessert after mugging!!! woots!! now we're scouting places to study.quiet,can eat,got toilet and cooling. cuz woodlands library is NOISY! oops...hahahaha...

hmmm...wonder why my appetite is going up and down.one moment super hungry.the next,see food also feel like vomiting. anw,seriously gotta lose weight, for the sake of my knees, my upper body mass gotta be ligher. this, is really NO CHOICE!! not i crazy to be bloody thin.

and,why cant i upload photos!!! irritating...LOL

"your words serve a motivation.
a motivation to study.
a motivation to slim down.
i work hard towards a goal.
it's for the better,i hope.
no matter what,
it'll be an encouragement to me"

WARNING! a whining post!

1st: my friend left sajc and went to pursue his academic in terms of medicine.

2nd: imbecile toads are unnecessary 'things' to be in the sight RIGHT NOW!

3rd: today was DARN GROSS! *flinch*

4th: i giv all out and sacrifice necessary things to get WHAT I REALLY want.

5th: it's not anger within me, it's the heart of winning that pushes me on.

6th: fallen into the well. deep enough to 'drown'. cant climb out for now

7th: it's NOT MINE and never will be mine.

8th: i dream, i strive and i reach!

the touch.makes one tingle and to stay strong.
those words will always serve as an encouragement.
hope will always be there.
to believe,to have faith.

life goes on.fight on.

to move on it's a great deal and effort.
once again,i know that i can strive on.
with the encouragement by many,
i know i'll survive!

feeling extremely fat, gotta go for intensive long runs!

found my passion for running again!

lost it all

lost my appetite for eating.for some days already.wonder why.
shall devote my time in studying like a crazy dog from now on.
shall devote my time in running to destress.
cant wait to watch harry potter this week.
biggest loser on earth.darn heck.
jus hate the feeling.
make me gross out.

no matter what,im going to convince myself whatever is insignificant.
nothing is more important than prelims and a levels.
insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.
insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.
insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.
insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.
insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.
insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.

im missing some-thing.or someone?

this is the old oak tree

bloom at the later year

such maturity

such charm

no one will forget you

this is the day

where the shadow was cast

the mystery that looms for months

seem to have crack

i miss the rainbow

for what reason

i dont really know.

nothing to compare about.

only one unique rainbow will exist.

the one that i cant own.

wonder why it matters so much

yet i've got so much other things to trouble

falling deeper which shouldnt have happened.

topic on ''qualification''

1. so gonna screw up my BT2 even though i REALLY study for it.sucks.

2.i really NEED a long run.preferably at ECP.wee morning.when there's no people.

3. i wanna a GOOD and INTENSE tanning session coupled with swimming.

4. losing all the motivations and determination.

5.oak tree bloom REAL LATE.it's true.but it's the strongest of all.am i like that?

am i qualified to be loved?
have i qualified loving others?
will i qualify for my exams?
have i qualified in terms of treating others well?

do i know what i want?
i think so.

losing that faith.
let nature take its course.
the rainbow remains to be a dream.
smile.i was told.

treasure everything

life's short.

king of pop: michael jackson, has passed on.

that's life.one grows up,one will die at certain age,it's a matter of time.
to treasure what you have.live it to the fullest.
cant say not to have regrets, cuz there's no perfection in the world.
we live to compromise.
it's just the level of tolerance.

life may be hard, life may be bitter, life may seem unfair.
but look from another angle, to be able to experience the up and down in your life, it's something that cant be repeated in another lifetime.

listen to your heart

dreaming is permitted. defintely.i dream to drive a ferrai. sounds ridiculous. i know. but it doesnt hurt to dream, for the future is always mistified.

listen to your heart.listen not too hard. just let nature takes its course. but dont neglect what your heart says.

love is just like coffee.and coffee is just like love. bitter yet sweet. sweet yet bitter. confusing.

i wish to stand between the rows of colourful tulips. a large rainbow around me. i'll be happy.

4more days to BT2.

anxious?

i think so.

hang in there.

i know.

something is amiss.

i wonder what.

feel lethargic for not running.

why?

what's missing?

numero 3500

minimum 6 hours a day.
maximum 8 hours a day,if possible.
to get my 1st goal,
which is 52 and above.
certainly have to put in that >200% of hardwork.
minimum burn 1000 per day.
so as to reach 46 in 3 weeks.
all because of that 1 rainbow.

watched 'the human spirit' on okto last night.
it was about the oldest conjoined twins.
touching.
i treasure the every step i walk, every word i say and everything i do.

do what's right.

persevere y esfuércese

went to zoo last fri!! awesome trip! with audrey and shermin! like finally...-.-LOL...had a great time.the one place we spent the longest time..is the baboon place!! HAHAHAH....fabulous red heart shaped fur-less butt!! SWEETTT~~~lol..a crapping day.lovely.
left 2 more weeks.gotta mug like real hard shit..oops :P..but wif the ppl tat live beside my household,they smoke like crazy,they renovate their house..holy cow.how am i to study in peace??tat's why,i devise a plan...wake up early in the morning to go for running then go library study! cool...hope i can wake up lah..this whole week,horrendous dinner...not the food.but i cant stand some tv shows and..ARGGH!!!

the kangaroo name 'wallaby'..cute right?
HUGE seal..

our tickets,and shermin's fav..the probscious monkey..goodness knows why..LOL

during the boat ride...nice..

ok..erm..

im the map reader of the day!! shermin took shifts lah..LOL

B&J cow!!

the bodyguards for the boat ride station..LOL

sher said tat this is my bf..muscular..-.-

b4 the journey begin..LOL

Yo lucha.yo empujaré más allá de mis límites.

el futuro arco iris

the time will come,

ulitmately i think.

because of the future rainbow,

i'll study hard,

and i want to lose weight,

and i want to run all i can.

because of the future rainbow,

i've to give all i have now,

and have no regrets.

that day will come,

i believe.

a matter of time,

as always.

for you,

that rainbow,

seems so bleak,

yet miraculous.

for no one knows,

what's the future is like.

un arco iris que es usted

went to upper seletar for late morning run and exercise.not so fantastic.sunny.but not for long.it rained.darn!!!
lost my appetite.wonder why.
my tooth hurts for a week,shall go to dentist tmr.
traumatised.cuz of the bloody lizard that crawled my foot and apparently stayed on my body for quite some time until it dropped off when i stood up and walk!*GROSS*
intensive mugging shall start tmr after visit to dentist.
cant wait for friday.zoo with shermin and audrey! whee~~

i miss chiangmai period i miss the kids period i miss the food period i miss the weather period i miss the translators/helpers period i miss being there with the team period it was like a dream period so unreal period

''Love is something eternal; the aspect may change, but not the essence.'' Vincent van Gogh

sleepless nights

went for mugging session at lot1 library.it sucks.but i studied for 5 hours straight.kinda of accomplished.but the library was hell noisy!and i cant stand it!! rahh!!! i need silence,that's why i go to library to study.but apparently, it's not!!

praying darn hard tmr is gg to be SUNNY and a wonderful day for me to go for a run and have a nice tan!! im becoming fair and fat.hoping that i'll tone up during june hols!! i dun wan to gain any bloody kgs during this june hols!! arghh!!

feeling so tired.didnt sleep well for nights even though i'm so lethargic/tired.it's hell man.cuz it makes my day unproductive.wonder what's making my nights so bad and sleepless.

it seems ages,

months in fact.

things have changed,

for better or worse,

no one knows.
there's a long and windy road,

it seems longer than ever.

how long would one take to finish it?

or does it have an end?

it darkens after your gleam disappear.

is it the rainbow?

or is it me?

i want to lie on the beach.

i need some silence.

some quietness would be great.

the rainbow will appear sometime later.

i wonder when.

what's patience?it doesnt exist.

FUMED TO THE MAX!!!!!!!!!

firstly,i DON'T pay to get INSULTED.
secondly, i wouldn't step into THAT place/restaurant
thirdly,you DON'T deserve any respect.

i always believe 'do onto others what you want others to do onto you'.
if you don't give,you'll never gain.

what's patience?
i don't understand.
what's happiness?
it's definitely not money.
with 100 billion dollars,
i'll be even more unhappy.
is it people?
i think so.
is it me?
definitely so.
am i emo?
im not sure.
am i frustrated?
of course!
for whatever matter?
i really don't know.
why am i like that?
i really want to know.

maybe,i lack of something.
i want that rainbow to comfort me.

Non esistono piu

the time for farewell has come,

tears were shed,

words were exchanged,

efforts were thanked.

laughter rang in our ears,

tear drops flow down our cheeks.

we bade farewell,

wishing all the best to you.

it wouldn't be the last time to see you,

yet,

there isn't any more chance to say ''thank you'',

no more of draggy greetings.

there's only memories,

be it bitter,sweet or sour,

you've impacted us,

we've impacted you in one way or another.

well,

life goes on,

but we know what would be missed.

chui to the max...

darn,my knees are aching.
I'VE COMPLETED MY 10km ADIDAS SUNDOWN!! whee,i know it's not a big deal,but i completed without stopping!! yeah!!! hahahahaha..morning have frisbee tournament(even though i didnt play like A LOT,but still, it's quite tiring to play under the freaking heavy rain) but the weird thing is,even though im so tired,i still have the energy to go for a light swim.i want to get under the sun.i miss the warmth of the sun and tanning feeling.LOL..
kinda of irritated by a couple of things at the moment.RAHHH!!!

anw,back to the adidas sundown,i hope they'll improve their management next year.i was quite turned off when they didnt let the corporate and 10k women ppl to go off.well,i noe there's only a pathetic small bridge to walk,but the nx marathon is at 12am!?!?! those ppl could let us off in grps rather than letting those ppl to walk in first and stay inside for 2hrs.and there weren't a lot of signs.too much confusion.volunteers were complaining tired when they were standing and DRINKING water.and some were really rude.oh well...and the best thing is ,10km..there's only ONE drink station.tsk tsk.moreover the weather was horrendously humid.and the last complaint,the pathway is WAY TOO NARROW,cuz it allows only 2 ppl to run adjacently!rahh...whatever.LOL...

and..i WANT TO BUY THE YELLOW ADIDAS SHORTS WHICH IS ON 30% SALES!!!

before the race,along the beach enjoying the wind breeze cuz it was damn humid!

my sis and my bibs!!

before the race,still quite happy..

LOTS of husbands and boyfriends were standing there to take photos of their wives/gfs cum friends.a funny sight cuz the husbands/bf didnt run,the world has evolved slightly.but nevertheless,they're supportive! LOL..

AFTER THE RACE! euphoria for me,as you can see, my sis is bloody tired.cant blame her,we went to collect the bag after she finish while i've cooled down for quite some time.and i sweat like MAD!! and stink too...LOL

the grass is soft,

the sun is so comfortable and warm,

i want to lie down there,

and absorb all the sunlight .

it's so calm and quiet,

peaceful.

look across and i see the horizon,

and i smiled,

knowing that rainbow is beyond pluto already.

really BIG right??imagine taking it on the bus without blushing?

had gp paper,hope i did well,as in write properly..''simple language''.LOL.went lunching at astons with dip,alicia and candy.waited for 1hour!! nuts.and for the first time,i didnt really whine.LOL.but some ppl ard us were really noisy(dunnot why one has to speak SO loud).after the HOT lunch.we walked to heeren! and i managed to buy my sports bra,but it's lime green.sad,not the colour i really want.went to the NUM outlets,nothing interesting.disappointed..LOL..hahahaha.the ULTIMATE part was when dip,candy and me went taka and saw HUGE helium balloons and we went crazy talking abt buying one for sr's bday and for ms huang's farewell.well,we ended up buying one for each of them! and we carry on the bus!! gosh...i blush like nobody's business man!! it's bloody huge.the width is much bigger than me and the length is half of me! goodness.can u imagine...tsk tsk..

tmr morning having frisbee tournament,think im going to be a clown on the pitch.damn sad.at night have adidas sundown marathon.it's just going to be a damn tired day.well, im gg to try to chiong my 10km with my sis and take bus home! not going to stay there for movie marathon.think it's crazy..LOL

i dare to dream,

i hope to lie on your shoulders,

but i would not hope for it,

cuz i don't have the strength and courage to own it.

a significant yet unimportant day

the rain has stopped,

and the rainbow is out.

smiling to the earth.

it wheedled me into stopping and stare at it.

oh yes, that's the power it has.

i warble as i walk,

the wanderlust in my heart waiting to burst forth.

the woolgathering is inevitable,

such a lovely day,

who wouldnt stop and wonder,

are you that rainbow?

the colour pencils are in your hands,

paint me a smile with your hands.

for i believe you do wonders not only with your lovely hands,

because your winsome smile swept me off the ground.

for someone who is wiseacre,

knows what i'm saying all.

the 7 colours in the rainbow.

red,the colour of anger.

orange,the colour of your aura.

yellow, the colour of your sourness.

green, the colour of people's jealousy.

blue,the colour of the mighty sky.

violet, the colour of passion.

indigo, the colour of comfort.
what do you belong to?

would you paint me a rainbow?

you're just another passer-by.

i don't long for more,

for i know the chance is small.

a friend is more than anything.

i enjoyed the laughter and the encouragement.

but now,it has come to a stop.

a little girl,

grabbing onto the balloons so tightly,

looking up into the sky,

and saw a beautiful rainbow and asked,

''mama,look,that's mine'',

the mother smiled for she knows,

when she was a little girl like her daughter,

she secretly wished the rainbow is her's,

and she has already found her rainbow,

and hopes her little girl will too find a lovely one.

the rainbow is gone for now,

i'll walk the same way,

i'll listen to the same song.

things may be different.

but i know there's memories,

and there's always hope,

even that's so small,

i still can wish.

the affinity that exists,

if you choose to believe

there's no truth in those words.

the jealously in the heart cannot be seen.

but can be heard.

the numerous curse and swears punctured one totally.
is it possible to dogde?
no, it is inevitable to be poisoned.

how does one survive?

sourness can be sensed when one speaks.

it's frightening for the fact it's someone closest to you?

is it possible to believe again?

im afraid not.

the gain of trust was easy.

now it's almost destroyed.

who shall one talk to, when one is sad,demoralised or even the share of joy?

i cannot, but pause to ponder.

is there someone out there?
and the guess is right afterall.
somehow,the truth surfaces as time passes by.
no matter,
words spoken with great cautious drained one's energy.

it's too misty.

the show seems to be over faster than ever

the rainbow is or seems to be the missing piece for my puzzle.
but i can never be the missing piece for the rainbow's puzzle.

tired.really tired.
cant wait for tmr morning.to try out my brillant static/circuit trng.
cant wait to cook my kimchi noodles.
irritated by the fact hav to change the bloody adidas sundown shirt.freaking small and tight.

cant wait to take rainbow out of my mind.

rainbow.7 colours.

i jus love this comic strip so i decided to post this as the pic of the week! LOL..well,it was take nlast week! kinda of like me.i like to SLEEP so much since i was a toddler,everywhere i go i sleep.LOL..even when my family went to hong kong,i spent 80% of the time sleeping in my dad's arms! LOL...i love to be eccentric at times.tink it's awesome! hahaha.okok..tis is nuts..

think im really gg bonkers to a certain extent! LOL.looked at the wrong timetable last nite,brought the other math lect bk instead.went to wrong venue for H1.dumb dumb.LOL..even though i had kinderjoy,hmmm...still not sufficient.in terms of happiness level.LOL..it's not easy to refrain frm sweet food esp when u're so hungry!! arghhhhh!! damn..trying very HARD to stick to my diet!!! im still eating.jus refraining frm fried food,sweet stuff...and change from lychee ice to carrot orange juice again....ALL THE WAY!!!

nx fri is gp block test 2...nx sat is ultimate frisbee and adidas sundown marathon!! die.LOL

man...tmr's wed! cant wait for fri!!! RAHHH!! lol..

red:that's you
orange: a way to describe my mood??
yellow: that's the hidden you
green:that's me when im jealous
blue: that's me when im feeling blue
indigo: that's when there's beautiful sunset
purple: that's you when u're really being weird.

do destiny and fate exist or co-exist?
i dunno.
i still carry that teeny weeny bit of hope.
or else,i'll open my palms and let it fly away.
there's 7 colours,and i cant even see one right now.
i dun tink i'll see even one in you.