AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

seems like this blog of mine is an EMO blog(as what my frens say so).HAHAHHAA...mayb it's bcuz whenever i feel like crap-pot,i'll type random stuff here.woots!

moe relief teaching application got approved.but lots of schs are cutting budget,chances of me getting to tat sch is soooooooooooooooo minimal.oh man..now frantically scouting for job.gotta get some money in b4 cny,or else cant help out in housewhole expenses.

had food poisioning since x'mas day.till today.though im definitely feel much better today.no more diarrhea!!no more pukes!! hurray!! no more buffet for me unless it's FREAKING good.(exceptions!) thus i couldnt go for the kss sec1 prep camp(extremely guilty), hope the organisers understand.i didnt even make it for my first DB trng.bollocks to the max! argghh!!!

wonder im feeling so crappy.probably a friend of Pessimistic,a bad friend of optimistic.always making decisions for the worst! LOL...like as if the world is falling off soon. howling like a hyena.LOL.random.

watched 2 telemovies(if im not wrong wif the term) called "The Will" and "The Promise". It's simple and nice and sweet, for the second movie. The first one is somewhat a black comedy/humor (if im not wrong). In any case, after watching the promise,i wanna go to Lopburi at Bangkok, during november-jan, cuz it's the season of sunflowers!! and i LOVE FLOWERS!! wanna travel to holland,japan etc ctries to see tulips,lavender,sunflower and etc.the big patch/ spread of flowers is so AWESOME!!!

waiting for my sunshine.waiting for my rainbow.waiting for IT.
truth was told.no one trust.i turned and walked away.

oh boy

2 weeks plus of freedom and i'm feeling real bored.

i got so bored to an extent of cleaning up my house! LOL...well,partly bcuz i really love been very clean(in a way), another thing is that cleaning up takes up a lot of my time!! good way of being productive and a form of exercising! hahahaha....but suffer from slight concussion.LOL..think i hit my head against the cupboard door which i left it open to air it.dumb.

frens are starting to work while im still waiting for the approval email.hope they wan me!! *PLEASE!!*hahahaha....or else i'll need to hunt for a job.


hmmmm...contacted safra dargonboat team.was surprised that they replied me the next day?!?!?! they sort of invited me down to their trngs.well,i haven't been to one cuz their trng dates i always hav smth on.BUT i'll definitely go to their trngs by the 1st of week of JAN 2010! kinda of excited.praying that i wun become so huge in size,which my mum is very afraid of! LOL...at most no bf lor.sad.HAHAHAHAHAHA....

other than that,help my junior wif her sch work,gg out to supermkt to carry groceries,cleaning the house,exercising.i haven been out and under the sun! darn,despo for sunlight! LOL..

bday coming in abt 1 month.times flies really fast!scary!


so many things i wanna do and get:

1 tights
2 more running shorts(1 round cut and straight cut,preferably adidas/mizuno :P)
1 pair of slippers and sandals!
1 shoebag(the current one has disintergarted badly)
LOTS and LOTS of storybks and comics!
cook and cook and cook!!

things that i feel like getting but not exactly very useful,i think, are:

1 phitan band(think i spelt correctly)
tin tin comics(full volume)
asterix comics (full volume)


well,the list is endless...



hmmm...i shldnt be so greedy.

i hate my pimples!??!!?!?

disastrous experience that would be erased.
it's beyond one's limit.
the result of it was devillish.
it wasn't unforgettable nor memorable.
it was unfortunate.
gold cant buy experience.

to erase the name is easy.
to really do it is difficult.

"i rmb what you wore on the first day
there's so much time,to figure out the best in my life
i rmb every look upon your face
the way you roll your eyes
you make it hard for breathing"

i prayed silently in my heart for you.all the best.for you to win.
after a certain age,i don't fight for certain things already.
though some ppl say you've gotta fight for your happiness.
but it is unfortunate that the feelings gotta be forced.
it's better to be in this way.

cant wait to try out all the delicious recipes i've found!!