numb

cried during my meal.

dread going to work.seriously.

dont feel like going to work any longer.

it sucked my energy.

i hate saturdays.,

clinging onto the teeny weeny hope

somehow i'm crossing all my fingers and toes that i'll be able to make it to mindef,read carefully,it's mindef but NOT NS. it wouldnt be going out field and etc i guess,or should i say i hope so.it'll really be interesting and cool, nonetheless, pressurizing.

but i hope they'll contact me real soon although with the upcoming national day,it's so unlikely they'll contact asap...hmmmms.

it's really true that one has to create happiness for yourself(well,sometimes)

be brave,that's what i keep telling myself,i've got nothing to lose at all.

mindef.mindef.mindef.call me.call me.am waiting.am waiting.LOL.

make things happen.im not afraid to try anymore.

i do not care so much about other people's opinons.

may be i should tell him,' eh..i think i like you a little more than just friends. can i hold your hand?' LOL

to be brave

i tell myself,

i need to be brave.i need to support those who needs my love and everything.

i walk a different in life,but it doesnt matter because i learn more things and experience along the way through the bumpy course.

life will get more tiring aliong the way,i will hang on even though there will times that i cry like a big baby.

certain things in life that i will still find it hard to let it go, because i will try to achieve it.

but there's one thing that no matter how hard i try to convince myself, i will never try to go for it.maybe, some kind of love is not essential.may be,i can do without it.may be, i'm lying to myself even.

but right now it's about my future,family, studying and career. nothing else.

i just need to make the more appropriate decision.time to grow old