heart and soul

prelims started.one word to describe:vomits.HAHAHAHAHA.
has been quite grouchy or grumpy lately..yuk yuk.LOL..
cant upload any pics,sadded.hahahaha..counting down,4more weeks b4 i can go for a run again! so now doing stretching and basic pliates,reading pilates book too!! hahahaha...sitting too much to mug is bad for my butt.growing biggggerrr!!! HAHAHAHHAA..
i need SUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!it's tooooooo wet lately!! rahh!!!
[one more reason to my hundreds of reasons why i narrow down my choice]

"we're after the same rainbow's end,waiting around the bend"

last resort: to feign ignorance.mask that feeling.pretense.

HUAT!HUAT!HUAT! CHIONG! CHIONG! CHIONG!

recently whenever i use my com, it'll hotmail,sajc moodle, facebook for awhile, listen 2 songs.all within 30mins.and TADA! off to books.geez!! this is the life i've been trying to cultivate for the next 2++months.but ytd sorta prove tat im a little wee 'burnt' cuz when i sat on my dad's armchair,i fell asleep from4.30-6.45pm!!! intended to study but zonk out after reading the newspapers!! goodness gracious!how's school? like that lor,what else? LOL...seriously,other than mugging and talking some rubbish,mainly academic stuff is really not much of life, but jus persevere!!! 2++ more months only!!!! rahh!!

damn.now when im stress,cant go for run cuz of my dummy left knee cap, i've got smth called Runner's Knee.run too much.athletes tend to have it, especially female.moreover,i've injured it before,so not that fantastic.gotta avoid running for abt 6weeks or so!!!! HELL!!! how to sweat out? no worries,me wanting to keep fit and bloody lose weight, im doing basic pilates and stretching almost every day at home.normally 45mins-1hour. if im feeling stress and cranky,then it'll be 1hr15mins! LOL...and ...swimming!!! ahhhhh!! and all abt the SUN!!! i seriously dun like myself being too fair-coloured. no offense to anyone!

kinda of excited and cant wait for sunday to come.gg smu to mug wif cpf then gg to 'the coffee club' for dessert after mugging!!! woots!! now we're scouting places to study.quiet,can eat,got toilet and cooling. cuz woodlands library is NOISY! oops...hahahaha...

hmmm...wonder why my appetite is going up and down.one moment super hungry.the next,see food also feel like vomiting. anw,seriously gotta lose weight, for the sake of my knees, my upper body mass gotta be ligher. this, is really NO CHOICE!! not i crazy to be bloody thin.

and,why cant i upload photos!!! irritating...LOL

"your words serve a motivation.
a motivation to study.
a motivation to slim down.
i work hard towards a goal.
it's for the better,i hope.
no matter what,
it'll be an encouragement to me"

WARNING! a whining post!

1st: my friend left sajc and went to pursue his academic in terms of medicine.

2nd: imbecile toads are unnecessary 'things' to be in the sight RIGHT NOW!

3rd: today was DARN GROSS! *flinch*

4th: i giv all out and sacrifice necessary things to get WHAT I REALLY want.

5th: it's not anger within me, it's the heart of winning that pushes me on.

6th: fallen into the well. deep enough to 'drown'. cant climb out for now

7th: it's NOT MINE and never will be mine.

8th: i dream, i strive and i reach!

the touch.makes one tingle and to stay strong.
those words will always serve as an encouragement.
hope will always be there.
to believe,to have faith.

life goes on.fight on.

to move on it's a great deal and effort.
once again,i know that i can strive on.
with the encouragement by many,
i know i'll survive!

feeling extremely fat, gotta go for intensive long runs!

found my passion for running again!

lost it all

lost my appetite for eating.for some days already.wonder why.
shall devote my time in studying like a crazy dog from now on.
shall devote my time in running to destress.
cant wait to watch harry potter this week.
biggest loser on earth.darn heck.
jus hate the feeling.
make me gross out.

no matter what,im going to convince myself whatever is insignificant.
nothing is more important than prelims and a levels.
insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.
insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.
insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.
insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.
insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.
insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.insignificant.

im missing some-thing.or someone?

this is the old oak tree

bloom at the later year

such maturity

such charm

no one will forget you

this is the day

where the shadow was cast

the mystery that looms for months

seem to have crack

i miss the rainbow

for what reason

i dont really know.

nothing to compare about.

only one unique rainbow will exist.

the one that i cant own.

wonder why it matters so much

yet i've got so much other things to trouble

falling deeper which shouldnt have happened.