Monday, December 22, 2008

can i choose?

every word stabbed into the heart.why.it comes from the people you loved. if we cant love the people around us.especially our dearest,closest family, do we actually have the right to criticise others? do we the right to say we love others more? can i say i love the kids in chiangmai more than anyone or anything else? no.i cant. that makes me inhuman. it's not that i dont love them. it's just that if love can't be showed in a traditional family more openly, there would be more misunderstandings. this could be endless. practise of saying, ' i am sorry' , 'i love you' can be easy. or can be so difficult. not all things can go the way you want. who doesnt want their wishes and hopes to come true? patience is the virtue. patience is the best gift you can give your parents. learn to love your parents with your heart. how do i tell them?
am i a hypocrite? i dare to ask.
do i get to say 'NO' if i don't like ?
can i follow my passion and interest?
does loving running, kayaking, rowing and all sorts of other extreme sports a fault?
am i a weak? that's why i left the team earlier on?
why cant i choose?
so will i get the chance to choose?
life is not about yourself only.
success indeed can bring you far. a certain distance. obssession with high-paid salary jobs and etc.
seldom, we get to enjoy the process of what we do.
can i be a human?
do i have to explain to everyone why or what i do?why?
is it bad to follow your interest? like i running or kayaking or rowing therefore i left the team?
do i really have a choice to be able to choose whatever i like?
can i say 'NO' to some things that i don't like?
or am i too weak for challenges?
then how do i explain about a captain? it's never an easy thing. post kill people at times.
am i hypocrite? i dare to ask.

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